Hiatus

I've been really stubborn trying to improve and trying to push my way through an art block for almost an entire month. Now when I draw I just feel like tearing my hair out. I keep starting tons of drawings without finishing a thing anymore. I constantly feel like I should be able to do better.

I'm not even sure what I want to draw or where I want to go with it either.

I think I might just need to take a break for a while, instead of trying to keep forcing it.

It's like I'm afraid of somethings, but I'm not exactly sure what or why. Because all the answers I find seem irrational and are probably nothing I should care or worry about... but sometimes I feel like people have high expectations from me, and I feel like I need to meet some sort of "requirement" and am often not comfortable with my art or to step out of my zone of comfort. I know I should not be thinking about it... maybe it's just me having too high expectations from myself?

Sorry if this journal is more of a vent?? I've been very isolated lately too so that probably won't help. I've lost contact with most of the people I used to chat with, so I've been feeling a little lonely. Either they are busy, gone, or ignoring me *sigh* and I'm not the the kind of person to start a conversation so it's hard for me to keep in touch with people?

Anyway. I will still be posting a few adoptables so I can pay for food and bills, but I won't be active for a while. I will take this break to draw things purely for myself, for fun, to experiment. I won't be posting these, so I can do it without any kind of pressure... Sorry if that sounds selfish, but I really feel like it's something I need right now. Until I can figure some things out.